Struggling Mentally and Physically
This has been a rough week for me despite the fact it was supposed to be a "staycation."
OK, who the fuck came up with the concept of a "staycation" being a Good Thing? It is definitely not a vacation, that's for sure. All I am doing is the crap that I did not have time for when the semester was going (e.g., scrubbing the house, doctors' visits, etc.). Am I resting? Hell no. I wish I was as I can really use it.
Heck, even Bear is not enjoying himself. Mind you, he took the week off because we were expecting me to have surgery last week but he decided to take the week off anyways as he has not taken a vacation in a while either. The poor guy has been chauffeuring me and helping me out since that damn injection backfired. This has definitely not been a restful week for him either.
So where does that leave me? I feel like shit. It is that simple.
My hip is still suffering from the flare caused by the injection. Thankfully the pain is not the excruciating 9.5 I had Tuesday night, but it is still hovering in the 7-8. On Friday, Bear and I went out to run some errands and the pain was so bad after a while that I could barely walk. Not good.
I called up Dr. K to see what to do, but he is out of the office until Tuesday. Figures. At least his assistant was nice enough to ask one of the other doctors for help. He said to take anti-inflammatories and ice the joint, all of which I had already been doing. I told them this and that I was getting no relief from that. I was told there is nothing I can do until Dr. K comes back into the office. Damn.
The stress of all of this has put my fibromyalgia into a tizzy. Luckily the widespread pain has not kicked in yet outside my normal "tender spots," but the other symptoms are in full force.
The big problem right now is the fatigue. With fibro, it is not just a sense of being tired. It is an all-encompassing feeling of total exhaustion. Because of this, I can barely move. Yesterday, I struggled to get out of bed in the morning and ending up spending most of the afternoon sleeping or reading because I did not have the energy to do anything else. This fatigue is a serious problem because it can affect what I am able to do.
Another issue is the infamous "fibro fog." I am seriously out of it. At first I was blaming the Tramadol I was taking but then it kept going even when I stopped that. Even right now I feel wonky. I do not like this feeling.
I am going to try to spend today resting. Summer school starts tomorrow so I need to have some stamina due to the longer classes and the focus to teach.
Maybe I will start looking at vacation rentals for the end of the summer. I think both Bear and I could use a real rest for a change.
OK, who the fuck came up with the concept of a "staycation" being a Good Thing? It is definitely not a vacation, that's for sure. All I am doing is the crap that I did not have time for when the semester was going (e.g., scrubbing the house, doctors' visits, etc.). Am I resting? Hell no. I wish I was as I can really use it.
Heck, even Bear is not enjoying himself. Mind you, he took the week off because we were expecting me to have surgery last week but he decided to take the week off anyways as he has not taken a vacation in a while either. The poor guy has been chauffeuring me and helping me out since that damn injection backfired. This has definitely not been a restful week for him either.
So where does that leave me? I feel like shit. It is that simple.
My hip is still suffering from the flare caused by the injection. Thankfully the pain is not the excruciating 9.5 I had Tuesday night, but it is still hovering in the 7-8. On Friday, Bear and I went out to run some errands and the pain was so bad after a while that I could barely walk. Not good.
I called up Dr. K to see what to do, but he is out of the office until Tuesday. Figures. At least his assistant was nice enough to ask one of the other doctors for help. He said to take anti-inflammatories and ice the joint, all of which I had already been doing. I told them this and that I was getting no relief from that. I was told there is nothing I can do until Dr. K comes back into the office. Damn.
The stress of all of this has put my fibromyalgia into a tizzy. Luckily the widespread pain has not kicked in yet outside my normal "tender spots," but the other symptoms are in full force.
The big problem right now is the fatigue. With fibro, it is not just a sense of being tired. It is an all-encompassing feeling of total exhaustion. Because of this, I can barely move. Yesterday, I struggled to get out of bed in the morning and ending up spending most of the afternoon sleeping or reading because I did not have the energy to do anything else. This fatigue is a serious problem because it can affect what I am able to do.
Another issue is the infamous "fibro fog." I am seriously out of it. At first I was blaming the Tramadol I was taking but then it kept going even when I stopped that. Even right now I feel wonky. I do not like this feeling.
I am going to try to spend today resting. Summer school starts tomorrow so I need to have some stamina due to the longer classes and the focus to teach.
Maybe I will start looking at vacation rentals for the end of the summer. I think both Bear and I could use a real rest for a change.
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